Friday, January 13, 2012 | 10:50 PM | 0 Atasinchi
OUHHuhhhhhh!!!tension aishhhh,okeh.aihhh hujan pulak petang nih kalau dak bole pi lepak kat paific,sambil makan posperety kat mcdonal ann!!sedap!tak da motif pa nak ceqita cuma kekesalan di hati ja tak leh keluaq petang nih sebab hujan,okeh rahmat Allah syukur!!hujan jugak petang nih.okeh,esok da plan lagi nak pi merobohkan bangunan jitra mall,dengan melalak sampai tak dak soqa kalau bole esok,okeh... ..tutup ceqita,
I can ask for forgiveness and forgive other but one most thing i cannot throw away from being you hater,because i hate you so much for me you cannot repay all those thing with you kindness!! my eyes is blind toward you,seriously,and i just want to run for this thing,,being like granda in "catch us if u can",i cannot stand it anymore,sometimes felt like you are useless person that i had met and know .Hard to me to talk with you just like before and it became hardest when i look at your eye,Seriously,i want to slap you face,and don want to know you rest of my life,and hope i will forget you,
all of sudden in my memory.
Once i hate that all the time i will hate it,it the most difficult thing to change,even you be kind toward me,i only see your badness not your goodness,yesss!!i can smile at you,but that smile is fake*palsu semata-mata.I don want anybody to notice about that,and i don one other hate you as i hate you,i can speak to you but i'm not sincerely,the important is i'm trying to throw away this,it difficult and take time,please if you notice this thing toward you,stop asking this "how much i hate you ??"don increase the rate of hate toward you
*i am trying to forget all this*.
Please don force me to stop hate toward you,i am not lied to say i cannot stand to face with you,seriously i avoid from meet your eye,and avoid from smile,talk and whatever la.i know i had friend with you so long but this happen suddenly,i'm not ask or pray for this,i kept this and that make me worst from day to day i kept this deep in my heart,and i don want other to know about this, .
*sat bi sat bm kena telan penadol 4 bijik nih*
Yeeahhh!!seriously i want to change school this year but,i'm only a few month to stay in malik,so dalam hati says"sabar ja la tak lama ja nak jumpak dengan dia"so tak jadi la pindah kolah la,pikiaq pulak taun nih nak ambik SPM banyak benda kena uruskan pulak,seriously tak tipu kalau diberi pilihan nak pindah memang,nak sangat2 pindah,tuh pun kalau parent bagi rasa macam nak lari ja la dari sekolah tuh,Pikiaq SPM ja..
Bukan berdendam tapi rasa benci tuh natural exist,memang peqit bila kita benci orang nih noh,kena pulak orang tuh satu kelas gan kita lagi la rasa macam nak bina tembok penghadang ja,kalau la bole buat lama dah wujud kot tembok penghadang tuh,tolong la jangan tanya sapa yang aku meluat dan jangan meluatkan aku sebab aku tak mintak pun meluat kat ang,Dy mai sendiqi .dak, aku cuba tuk lupakan benda nih,aku tak kisah ang nak kata ak laqi daripada masalah tapi hakikat dy aku tak boleh ahhh camnih,dan kalau ang perasan aku meluat kat ang jangan la tanya pasepa ak meluat kat ang,tolonglah jangan tnya,kalau ang peqasan perubahan tuh,diam ja.I need more time to sattle down,maybe a month or year.
Memang aku senang nak maafkan orang tapi hakikat aku meluat kat orang tuh gila,dan aku taktipu dan bukan jeneh hipokrik nih,geram rasa macam nak bagi penendang ja,meluat sangat,..okeh takbaik meluat orang tapi,kalau orang tuh uat benda yang kita meluat selama-lamanya kita meluat lama dah sabaq nih,aku pun manusia biasa yg boleh meletup bila2 masa,yang da tahap kesabaran,.sori to say la..
*hai melelong kot celah mana pulak sat topik nih sat topik nuh*
Puaih ari jumaat ari tuh pi melalak,ingat nak pi cari buku ja,pastu nafsu tuh tinggi sangat ann,masok ja la bilik karoke time tuh kami dua orang ja,ehhh kami 2 orang pompuan*,hamboih sakit qengkong la menjeqit hilang habih tension2 lepaih tuh masok kelas kimia,lapang dada belajaq,hilang habih tension baguih la jugak noh karoke nih.Seriously dulu aku bukan jenih karoke tapi taktau la pasepa akhir nih syok sangat melalak,bukan melalak tapi menjeqit,rasa puaihh sangat2.hilang tension ..
